The weekend

This past weekend was my grand-daughter's second birthday. Well actually her birthday was on Friday, but the party was on Saturday at my son's and daughter - in- law's home. It was a very nice party, with lots of people and tons of gifts. As I looked at all the pictures that were posted after the party on facebook, I realized how lucky my son and daughter - in -law are to have so many friends that care so much for them that they sat outside on a cool, damp Saturday to eat and celebrate a child's birthday. Granted she is the most wonderful grand-daughter there is, but I am just a little biases.

To be blessed by God with her is a great gift that can not be understood until it happens to you. A grandchild is.... well there are no words for it. Just the thought of this wonderful little girl makes us smile. To hear her call out "gandma" and smile is a feeling that is beyond description.

Then to watch my youngest son, who is now 20, look at his niece with love and wonder is another gift that was unexpected! Uncle Alex, I know will melt that day that she calls him by name. Right now, there is no doubt that if she needed anything, Uncle Alex would do all in his power to take care of it for her, or protect her if she needed it.

As my husband and I contemplate a decision we will have to make in the near future of whether to stay here or move very far away, my heart breaks at the thought of not seeing my family here on a regular basis. Not to hear Bailey's voice "gandma" and see her smile and know that she is happy to see me. Not to see Alex everyday and not to see Nick and Nicole often. But we have to not walk in fear, but walk in faith and believe that God will guide us and take care of all the "WHAT IF's".

I have moved many times in my life and always lost touch with people as I have moved. I have moved from one city to another 11 times in my life. The last move was 20 years ago, and after 20 years I have deep roots here with friends that I trust and love and if I am to leave this place, I know that I will lose some people, but my true friends will hang with me.

A new adventure may be on the horizon,but it may not be. Whatever is out there, I will face knowing God is there for me.